I write to express things in my mind that I can't define... As I write, My pen screams to you, Spilling out my soul, Every letter, every word, Delivers, Every tear, every pain. But this isn't working! Grab my hand, I'm drowning. I'm going through emotions. I'm dancing on the edge of sanity. I'm miserable inside. I'm losing my mind. Being alone with my thoughts scares me. My confidence disappears, THEY don't want me better. THEY don't want me to heal. THEY don't want me fixed. THEY don't want me to sleep. THEY made a home in my head. This is my hell!

Mwangi Kirungoh

If I was like you, I'd wake up each day, Look into the mirror and love myself. If I was like you, I'd lock up my insecurities in a shelf, Make friends, And finally smile again. But here I am; Stressed, Scared, Broken. How did my fears go from bugs and heights, To thoughts in my mind? My mind... Is slowly but surely killing me. Wreaking havoc in me. It feels like it's too much I want to make this cloud above me disappear. I want to disappear!

Mwangi Kirungoh

I'm never good enough, not even for myself.

Mwangi Kirungoh

If you knew me, This is what would you'd really find; I'm scared, I'm filled with so much hate. You tell me to pick myself up, but it's too late! Dark is the only light in sight, Slowly killing me, Destroying me piece by piece. I've lost myself completely, Insecurities echo in my dreams, Yearning to be set free. It's fingers reach out, Dragging me deeper, Dragging me straight back to hell. I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm a bad person. I hate myself too, I've never been good enough, Not to myself and probably not to anyone. I think I've had enough... I wish you'd understand. You don't understand. You'll never understand.

Mwangi Kirungoh

My brain is awake and racing, Trapped inside me is a "mini-me". I tried pushing him back down But he's growing bigger and bigger, He's running out of room, Perhaps that's why he's rising up, To my lungs, throat and creeping into my mind. Sooner or later, I'll be disappearing. But then who knows? Maybe I'm already gone.

Mwangi Kirungoh

I'm impossible to love, It's only a matter of time before you figure it out. I can't help it, Unlike normal guys, I'm not myself lately. And that's what I am. I'm a wreck, Unpredictable and weird. I let people down, And hurt the ones I love. So I warn you prior, It always happens.

Mwangi Kirungoh